[Bit#19] The Science of Infantile Amnesia: The First Fragment in the Dark



1. Brain Remodeling: Why Are Memories Deleted?


Have you ever wondered where the precious memories of your early childhood disappeared? The answer lies, surprisingly, in the diligence of our brains. A child's brain is far more dynamic than an adult's. New neurons are created at an explosive rate every single day. This phenomenon is particularly prominent in the hippocampus, the region responsible for memory.

Why do memories vanish even as new cells increase? Paradoxically, it is because too many new cells are being created. These fresh neurons push their way between existing, delicate memory circuits. In this process, they either sever the old circuits or completely overhaul their structure. It is akin to a redevelopment site where old houses are demolished to build new skyscrapers.

While the buildings rise magnificently, the traces of the old alleyways vanish. The brain boldly abandons incomplete records of the past to ensure efficient growth. As we become adults, the rate of this neurogenesis slows down. This allows us to store memories more stably after reaching maturity. Early childhood memory loss is not a sign of a malfunctioning brain. Rather, it is evidence that your brain has successfully completed a healthy remodeling process. Is your brain, even at this very moment, clearing out the past to achieve better performance?


2. The Vessel of Language: The Limits of Unnamed Memories


Why do early childhood memories feel like a thick fog? Have you ever considered that language might be the reason? Neuroscientists note that the timing of language acquisition coincides with the period when long-term memories begin to form. The lifespan of a memory is determined by how the information is stored. Very young infants remember the world through images, sensations, and simple emotions. However, these non-verbal memories are extremely difficult to retrieve as time passes. Why is that?

Our brains have a habit of attaching labels to manage information efficiently. Once we learn the word apple, we place that round, red object into a storage box labeled apple. Later, just thinking of the word apple brings out all the information in that box like a string of treats. However, memories from before we learned words are like boxes without labels. The warehouse is full of boxes, but there is no way to find what is inside.

Language is like the thread that weaves memory together. Memories become solid only when we begin to understand the causal relationships of events through words and store them in a narrative format. Around the age of three, as vocabulary explodes, the quality of memory changes. From this point on, we store what we did and who we met in a story format. Ultimately, it may not be that we lost our childhood memories, but rather that we lack the tools to retrieve them. Where is your first unnamed memory hidden right now?


3. The Birth of Self-Awareness: You Must Know Who You Are to Remember


Think back to your younger self. Do you remember the moment you first realized the child in the mirror was you? Psychologists point to the formation of the self-concept as the key that opens the vault of long-term memory. Without a sense of self, there is no subject to store the events occurring to that self.

Typically, children between 18 and 24 months pass the mirror test. They begin to wipe off lipstick smudges on their noses by looking in the mirror. From this point, a child perceives a self that is independent and separate from the world. However, recognizing the self does not mean memories remain immediately.

Memory is not merely a device that records facts. It is the task of placing events within the grand framework of one's life history. As the awareness of who I am and where I am becomes clearer, memories become more robust. A center point of the self must exist for experiences to orbit around it like planets.


To film a movie where you are the lead, the role of the protagonist must first be confirmed. The period before age three, when the self-concept is faint, is like film rolling without a lead actor. Ultimately, infantile amnesia is not just a matter of brain capacity. It is an essential void experienced during the process of completing the mental foundation that defines who you are. When was the first time the protagonist spoke a line in the movie of your life?


4. The Trap of False Memory: Is Your First Memory Real?


Recall your very first memory. Is it a peaceful scene of lying under warm sunlight? Or is it an intense moment of crying while being scolded by your parents? There is a startling fact: there is a very high probability that the first memory you hold is actually an elaborately constructed fake.

According to psychological research, human memory is not a recorded video. Rather, it is closer to a puzzle that is newly assembled every time. Experiences from before verbal memory existed remain only as fragments in the brain. We use surrounding clues to fill these gaps. The core of this process involves repeatedly looking at photos in albums or hearing old stories from parents.

The brain mistakes information coming from the outside as if it were an event experienced directly. The image of yourself in a photo and your parents' explanations merge within the brain. Over time, this becomes fixed as a single, perfect scene. This is called a source monitoring error. It is a phenomenon where one cannot distinguish whether the source of information is one's own experience or an external story.

In fact, in one experiment, participants were repeatedly told about a hot air balloon accident they never actually experienced in childhood. A surprising thing happened after a while. Many participants replied that they vividly remembered the feeling of the wind and the fear at the time of the accident. The brain created a false memory based on the story.

Ultimately, your first memory is more likely to be a collaborative creation with your family rather than a pure record of the past. Is the oldest scene remaining in your mind real? Or is it a fragment of a warm story told by loved ones? What matters more than the authenticity of the memory is the role that memory plays in making you who you are today.

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